Deprogramming: Affirmations

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So, if you’re like me, you’ve spent most of your life thinking affirmations are stupid and pointless.

Blunt, I know, but I also know that I can’t be alone in that. I really did not see the point of them. I saw people who were affirmation-happy as not really doing or accomplishing anything. I viewed them basically as a new-age-y placebos.

And then 2016 happened.

I don’t know what it is about this year. 2016 for me has been the year of The Hanged Man. I’ve been going back on so many of my “I will never!”s. Not things centered in morality, just things I either never connected with or found value in.

I decided to give gems/crystals a shot. I’m writing my own affirmations. The world is upside down.

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On Urban Witchcraft & Hot Pockets

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I tell ya, I am just the best at titling blog posts.

“Urban Witchcraft & Hot Pockets” is the boiled down version of the topics covered here. Because I thought “Human Hubris & Spiritual Diets” sounded too boring.

This is gonna be a short one, so let’s hop right into it:

On Urban Witchcraft

Travel back in time with me for a moment, would you? The year is year is 2004 and I’m a baby pagan/witch living in Eastern Kentucky. My spiritual and craft practices consist of me taking walks through the woods surrounding my house, sometimes up to the very old cemetery on the hill behind my house (seriously, where I lived in high school was prime witching location, in the most stereotypical sense). I would burn cinnamon from the pantry as my only incense (that smell still screams witchcraft to me), and sneak out of my room at night to commune with nature and summon things while surrounded by it.

Add that to the fact that most of the books I was working with where standard issue Llewellyn books, and it’s no surprise that much of what I was exposed to and absorbed in regards to what witchcraft and paganism is and how it’s done was very, very nature based.

So it’s no wonder the concept of urban witchcraft threw me for a loop when I first heard of it. How can you witch without nature?! I didn’t give it much thought because I didn’t live in a big city. Even after my family and I moved back to Florida from Kentucky, I opted not to research it or even really think about it because while we were no longer living in the woods, we weren’t in a big city. So fuck it, right?

Cut to now, when I’ll be moving (at some point) to a city. I’ve had to think about how to pagan and how to witch in the middle of a concrete jungle a lot more lately.

And it’s not that I’m unwilling to do the whole pagan-witch thing sans nature. It’s just that it can be really hard to reframe something when you’ve always viewed it (for whatever reason) in a certain way.

But then I figured it out.

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Deprogramming: Money Mayhem

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Here’s the thing about using witchcraft to work on yourself.

Here’s the thing about using anything to work on yourself.

Here the thing about working on yourself.

You’ll never be finished. There will always be something to improve upon.

This is something I’ve known since before I even thought about trying to better myself as a person. Perfection is the greatest myth ever conceived, after all. But knowing something in theory and knowing something in practice are two totally different things.

To be quite honest, I (foolishly) thought I knew all of my problems, all of the things I needed to work on. I thought these were things that would keep me occupied well into my old age.

“There couldn’t possibly be more than all this,” I thought, standing in pseudo-contentment amid all my various problems, fears, and old hurts. “This will keep me plenty busy until I die!”
So imagine my surprise when I uncovered this previously unnoticed lie I’d been telling myself since childhood.

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